Thank You

When I saw you last night, I wasn't in the best of places… which you would probably know if these letters weren't unsent. But, you were astonishing, as always. You pulled me out of my shell, as you always seem to do, always seem to have no trouble at all doing.

I enjoyed talking to you, as I always do, even if it was only for a moment, even if it wasn't nearly long enough… is never long enough.

You have no way to know it, but you single handedly pulled me out of a rut, where I had lied down to… to just give up.

I try to reconcile the amazing warmth I feel from your direction with the idea that you are forever out of my grasp, and I just can't. How can there be this much love between us… and the universe just lets it slip away?

I'll try not to lie down in any more ruts. I already know I have to be there for the kids… but I realize I also have to be there for you, just as you were for me… even if we can't be together. To remind you from time to time of what love can look like…. Now that we're both a little older and a little wiser.

And I'll be here. I'll be here for you if you ever need me. And I'll be here for you… if you ever find that your situation has changed. Waiting, patient as a rock, because I know, I know what our love could look like, and it would be worth it.

I love you.